to say it was great is an understatement. to say it was exhilirating is perfectly fine! i closed my eyes all the time thinking about that person i am doing it with- knowing how aware that person is of my presence- and how aware i am of that person's presence as well... there were times when i am close to tears because of the ecstasy of the experience. and when it is over, i said i want to do it again. indeed, i want to do it forever!

my new found friends from lingcod alabang exactly know what i am talking about. i'd like to believe we share the same ecstatic experience when we did our first worship prayer with the lingcod ng Panginoon alabang community. and i want to thank them for giving me the chance to worship the Lord with them.

i should acknowledge first a friend from lingkod makati who brought me along to attend the anniversary celebration of lingcod alabang. he first brought me to his own branch and my exposure to two branches made me easily see how branches, although under the same charismatic group, differs in great ways. perhaps because people are really unique, and each unique personalities make up unique branches of only one lingcod charismatic group.

it was the kind of worship i so much wanted to do. but doing it outside a charismatic community might license anyone to bring me to an asylum. i have my fair share of visiting places intended for psychologically disturbed persons and indeed, there is a bit of similarity. some of our problematic friends really worship the Lord in the same way we do in lp alabang. however, i am sure it is not their way of worshipping that brought them in the asylum. just as it is the way of lb alabang's worshiping that brought them the blessed lives they are enjoying now.

it felt good knowing how true the presence of God is in every prayer experience. at first, i realized how i have lived a life separated from God. a lot of tears come along with this realization. but along with this is the desire to spiritually go home to God, for then i've realized i so much need a savior.

yet, such experience is not as gloomy as how i put it here. it felt good crying in front of the Lord and it was great to simply voice out whatever i want to say to him. but what makes it different is i am with people who do the same. i am in communion with people who are more or less in my age-level and it's good to know that they are with me in the same boat.

however, realizing how i have lived a life away from the Lord does not stop me from continuing living in such ordeal. funny because as soon as i started worshipping with lp alabang, my sinful struggles shook me with such intensity. i felt like i was being betrayed by the Lord. but he didnt want me to entertain such thought for long. he made me realize that he is with me in the same boat that is being whipped by strong winds. he made me remember that he'd do everything to save me- sparing not even his life... and finally, to remember not to fear anything as long as i live in his love- for perfect love dispels fear and darkness.

how does it feel like doing it the first time? i'm still single and i know nothing about honeymoon but i can definitely say that it was just like a honeymoon. and i hope it would forever be a honeymoon guaranteed by the support and love of my new found friends in lingcod ng Panginoon Alabang.

LP ALABANG ROCKS!!!